Angels and Words

So! I guess I could just start a new blog and pretend that I am a very good blogger who really likes to post daily. But I am not a really good blogger and I don't like to post so often xD Anyway, here is a new entry^^ 

No NaNoWriMo this year. It feels really weird. I mean, November has already started 4 days ago and I'm still not writing. It is really starting to feel wrong, actually. But I don't have time for it at all this year. I have to write a paper and I have to catch up on vocabulary and Kanji. I really need my time to get through the first semester at university. But you know what? I actually got some inspiration for a new book, so if all this isogashii-ness is over, I think I'm going to try and start writing again. I really hope it works out. In the meantime, I've been doing some photoshopping. I'm not very good at it yet, but I'm just trying some things that I like. For instance: black and white pictures with a touch of colour. I've been searching for good deviations on deviantart.com to use for these tryouts. I'll post some of them here. Don't expect too much of it, they're just tryouts and I hope I'll be able to make something good with these techniques. I've been doing a lot of online tutorials so I hope I'll be able to post some kind of genius picture in a while. Maybe I'll even start updating this blog regularly! If that happens, pinch me, okay, for I may be paralyzed, drugged or just gone insane^^

I'll post some rainbow-ness! That means, one of every colour^^ Oh just to be clear: I just got the pictures from Deviantart, made them black/white and then re-added some colour. If that makes any sense to you. It means I didn't really do much about the picture, so if you really love the picture, try and see the original one on deviantart by clicking the links below the pics^^

Original picture by *Chansie

http://chansie.deviantart.com/art/Blue-109381176

Original picture by Mr-Current

http://mr-current.deviantart.com/art/Purple-110111656

Original picture by one-little-thing

http://one-little-thing.deviantart.com/art/pink-67769754


 

Original picture by 'larafairie

http://larafairie.deviantart.com/art/The-Red-Death-35066618

Original picture by ethereal-forest303

http://ethereal-forest303.deviantart.com/art/Orange-75092698

Original picture by =realityDream

http://realitydream.deviantart.com/art/Yellow-141956861



Original picture by paahti

http://paahti.deviantart.com/art/green-72740788


Well, those are just to give you an impression of the color thingies I like^^ I'm trying to find some genius black/white/color combination, but for that I need a genius picture, so I'll keep searching.

Ja ne!~~

Angel
 

Well, it's a miracle that I even thought about updating again (A) I've been really busy, as always. I know it's not an excuse *removes splashed tomato from forehead* Thanks. I needed that.

So anyway, I'm in the middle of a horrible, terrible, ghastly, gruesome, dreadful, awful, nasty, schrecklich, blöd, furchtbar, terrible (en français xD), affreux... well you get my point. I don't like it. It's a test week with oral exams. German went pretty well, I think (8.5/10). Only the literature part wasn't a great success (5.0/10). French was a disaster. I completely messed up that one. I just sort of died the minute I didn't know what word to say and after that I couldn't think of any French word whatsoever xD (5.3/10). So now only English and Dutch left. And I still don't know the mark of Art History-thingy. And of my 2 Maths tests, which I find quite important. *hates Maths teacher for being so slow in correcting*

Soooooooooooo I see my last post was during NaNo. Of course I made it again this year ^___ ^ NaNo, je t'aime <3

I don't think I've got much more to say. I'll post a poem that's a bit exclusive: for Dutch readers only xD It's a haiku^^ Me likes ze haiku. Anyway... Buh-bye and I hope I won't forget to update sometime soon again.

Herfst
De herfstwind waait of
zijn leven ervan afhangt
kleuren te vangen

  ~Angel

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lab.drwicked.com

Woew! Keep writing keep writing keep writing keep writing keep writing keep writing keep writing keep writing keep writing...

Aight. NaNo madness^______^

~Angel

Edit: Wooow, I just saw my last post before this one, and I was still in my 5th year o.O Now I am in la Terminale and much has changed, so I thought a little update might be necessary. I'm really busy. Need to do a PW (Profiel Werkstuk = something that needs to be done for one of the subjects you have chosen. It's like.. an essay or something. It needs to be of good quality, of course. My PW is for Dutch, and it's going to be a real good one. Uhu! Bet you didn't expect that.) And.. I need to read 11 books this year (well, half a year. Okay, 3/4). Have to do some presentation, actually it's more like preparing a whole lesson, for Religion. My Art History essay-thingy. Watch TV in German (blegh.) and so much more that it's in fact giving me the cold creeps. Then I have sport: training 2 evenings, games on Saturdays. The other three evenings, I'm going to work, starting in.. 2 weeks. The weekends are for my boyfriend. What do you mean, busy? But this'll only be for half a year. Then I won't have any normal lessons anymore and I'll need my time to study for my final exams. But it'll be alright, I think. Oh, and about that big money I was rambling about in my last post: it has finally come my way. Muhaha. I've got 800 euros so far, and I should get 100 more in a couple of weeks. Of course, some of this has been spent already (A) But since I'm going to work quite a lot, I don't think it'll be a problem. Anyway, this was all the news I can think of at the moment. And.. I guess it was quite boring. Maybe you've even skipped this part and went to my poem immediately. I would've done the same (no actually I wouldn't, because I like to know what people think and how they translate it into words), because of course a poem appeals more to the creative mind than this huge amount of text. Alright. Back to the original post:


Woooow and another return. I shouldn't be allowed to keep a blog, really. I take the most beautiful pieces of Internet and ruin them by a blog that is not regularly updated xD

Anyway, thought I'd put my just-written poem here, since it's been... well, a long time ago that I've written anything at all. Oh, and to let y'all know: I'm participating in NaNoWriMo again (http://www.nanowrimo.org (and if  you're interested: Username Angel_Jet (the lameness, I know))) (And yes, I did indeed do that just to have three of those ))) at the end. Hehe) and of course I want to win for the 3rd time. Three times in a row always has something special. November = madness @_@ It's really not a good idea to participate, since I'm in my terminale (I believe I explained this a couple of blogs ago, or maybe it was my last post xD) and have lots of shit to do, besides korfbal, my newly gained job and my boyfriend. But of course, stubborn me, I'm participating^^ I'll see how it turns out. I really want to make it but I doubt if I can write 1667 words a day when I haven't written any story for a year (since last NaNo) xD
But when NaNo '07 came close, I had the same problem, and I still won. Hehe. Anyway, so much for my rambling. Enjoy the poem. Tip: do not try to find any logical theme in it.

Hi. Here I am again. I'd run in fear if I were you xD

Dude, it's been so long since I last posted here. The bad thing is I haven't written anything this year. Well, hardly anything. And I'm going to change that. I'm going to put up some random blog with a weird story and I'm going to force myself to post over 500 words every week. It has to be done by Friday. I hope it works, I guess it won't xD

Hm... Life is so weird. I have so much to tell but I can't find the words.

Well first a little update about -moi-, like y'all would be interested. It's almost the end of the school year. Next year will be my last year at JFC. That means: final exams. I'm really not looking forward to it. In fact, I don't like the idea at all. Do you know how they call the last year in French? La terminale. What does that remind you of? Right. Terminate.

I guess I'll get through and I'll manage to get that damn paper that'll finally allow me to go study Japanese. And that is something I am looking forward to. Gambatte kudasai!

So.. Hm. I really really really want to buy a book. It's 35 euros. Oops. My bank account has just gone really empty. I've paid in advance for my holiday and I've just bought 4 tickets for One Republic, Melkweg, 21st of September. I'll get paid back for 3 tickets of course, but still, my bank account looks really empty. It'll change. Work in Summer Holidays does pay off.

What else is there to tell about? I've got a two person bed, yay! I love it. I can stretch my legs without bumping my toes. Maybe it'll finally give my toes the chance to get rid of that blue color.

Nah, kiddin'. My toes are really... red. Yeah. Oeh! I'm 17. My birthday was in May. So that's one more step in that direction called 'maturity'.

And.. I have a lot of books I really like. I'm totally into buying books these days. Now I just have to find the time to actually read them. But Summer Holidays are approaching (2 more weeks! Okay, okay, plus a couple of days) and so is the big money. Uhu, I'm a real optimist. Half full, you know.

I'm going to sleep now. Perhaps I can think of some more stuff to tell. If that is the case, I'll update again tomorrow.

Ja mata!

~Angel

Wooow I'm really bad at this. Note to self: Two words. Up-date.

I'm still living my life in a train that is going waaaay too fast. And I really don't know what to do about it but I notice that my body and mind are getting really tired. I don't think that's a good thing. I often have a weird feeling these days: my body is real tired while my mind has enough energy, or the other way around. My body feels well but my mind is tired. *sighs*

The past couple of years I would be doing nothing about school in this time of the year. But this year, they have decided to put a frikkin' lot of stuff in the last couple of weeks. Well, actually there are 10 more weeks to go including 2 weeks of holidays, but still. I have some test week somewhere in June and until that week I have about 2 tests a week. Then there are the essays and I even have to watch German tv o.O Oh my God I think I'm going to die.

I really don't want to do this for another year, but I have to. And then I can finally go to Leiden University to study Japanese language and culture <3 How I wish I could start after this Summer Holiday. Things don't always go as you wish. In fact, they never go as you wish. Hm that's not true either. Let's keep it at this: they barely go the way you wish they would.

Yesterday I went to Elf Fantasy Fair! It was so YAY and bouncy and.. YAYYYY I'm so going to EFF every single year. I absolutely LOVE it. I can't even describe the feeling it gives me. This will explain better I suppose: <3<3<3<3<3<3<3 It really feels like some kind of homecoming. Yeah.

We have got a new store in the great almighty Btown! It is.. Xenos! xD It is actually a very nice store. And.. THEY HAVE NOODLES! YAYY! Really cool ones. In some kind of cool cup and in a hecking lot of different tastes. Yay^^

Anyway, I'll try to remember to keep UP-DATE-ING. Woohoo!

^^

These last couple of days have certainly been a nice train. But then again I decided to forget everything about school and other obligated things. It really helped. The only disadvantage is that the smack you get when you have to go back to school is extra hard xD But well. I was dead already.

~Angel

Dumdumdum..

And again some proof that I'm not good at updating regularly. But well, then again, nothing really interesting has happened since my last post. I mean, I sport (Jet? Sporting? o.O Well yeah, I know, totally crazy), I work, I'm busy with school, and my weekends are completely full (<3).

So basically, I'm busy.

I'm going to re-arrange the furniture in my bedroom (yes, again.) and I'll get cable on my TV, woohoo! And.. well, no and. I really have nothing to tell. It's all so weird and chaotic and... weird.

Aaaaaaaaah heck. Could someone please push the 'pause' button? Give me time to breath? I feel like I'm living my life in a train moving so fast I can't enjoy the view, while the inside of the train is really lovely and nice and warm and sometimes I don't even want to look outside. Does that make sense? I guess it doesn't. As usual.

Well, ja mata ^_^

~Angel

Okay. Forget that last entry. I just needed to throw my feelings on somewhere, and that somewhere was on my LJ. I really didn't know what to do, it was all so weird. But then I found out I was just thinking way too difficult. I was comparing and that is something you should not do.

Then when I let that thought go, it turned out to be quite beautiful. And to think I hadn't even noticed before..

Well, a merry christmas to all of you who're reading this! (Very few, I guess^^) And I wish you all a very happy new year, may it be full of love and nice things^^

I know my start of the year will be the best in years. Ureshii^^

~A very happy angel

I don't know what to do. I'm heckin' going crazy at last.

[Okay this was deleted. I just.. I know some people have read it and I'm okay with that. But other people don't have to read this. Read the next entry, it'll explain a lot^^]

I want to go far, far away. That'd help a bit, I guess.

Aloha!
And yes, NaNoWriMo has started once again. I'm a little behind on the scheme, but I'll catch up. Yes, I will. This is one of the things in my life that I really want to do. Something I'll put my whole heart in.

Yeah. For the ones not knowing what I'm talking about: National Novel Writing Month! Writing a novel of 50,000 words or more in 30 days. Yay! ^_^

Oh and I still love this layout. I might change the colors though, pink is so.. pink. Hehe xD

Food for writing: Chocolate. Chocolate. More chocolate. Chip cookies!
Music:
An Cafe - Kakusei Heroism
Il Nino - How Can I live
Linkin Park - P5hng Me A*wy - Live in Texas
Luna Sea - Gravity
Malice Mizer - Beast Of Blood
Saybia - The Day After Tomorrow
Smile Empty Soul - This Is War
Vertical Horizon - All Of You
Vertical Horizon - Best I Ever Had
Vertical Horizon - Sunshine

Well, got to write!

Ciao,
~Angel, nano'ing till the bitter end

Yayy for useless and free embed crap!^^

The clock is cool. Isn't it?

^^

~Angel

Alohaaaa!

Don't mind my last post. I was really down, yes, and what the post says is true. But I'm a lot happier already. But well, you know life has ups and downs. And sometimes very big ups or real deep downs.

Anyway: New layout! It's so cute! I completely fell in love with it and am in fact still drooling over it. It's even called Japanese Style! I mean, duh, of course I had to pick this lay. It's indeed Kawaii art^^

And well, finally weekend! I don't know what I'll be doing. And I like that I don't know what I'll be doing.

^^

Ureshii desu ka?

You can answer the question if you'd like. That is, if you know what it means xD If you don't know, ask and then answer^^ I like comments!

Well see/talk to/read you later!

~Angel, having found about 90% of the pieces and glued them together, thinking the other 10% will be lost for the next couple of days/weeks/months, hoping for the first.

I remember walking around last week, thinking about the fantasies I used to have.

Fantasies about something special happening to me. Fantasies in which I could escape from a reality that I didn't like at all.

I was realising I hadn't had one of those fantasies in weeks. Because I was actually living such a fantasy.

And then, suddenly, the world I had slowly started to build, collapsed. Now I'm trying to find pieces of myself in the ashes.

Hello again, fantasies.

The weirdness. I'm serious! Everything is freakin' weird. My mood changes every second, my class is still not very cool, my cats are still sweet and lovable, my mother is still in bed with a broken hand and foot, and yet everything's different. I didn't really have much lessons, since I was with my tutorclass Monday, and tomorrow I'll have to help a second-grade-class with their sport-day-thingy o.O Not cool. But hey, we get to skip lessons! And that's what it is all about these days, skipping as much as you can without having to do too much of catch-up work afterwards. Which is not possible anymore in this year. Blegh.

Well, I've been offered a job at the library, starting next week! The coolness. I'm not quitting my paperround though, I like having much money xD I can't do my paperround on Fridays, but I know a girl, 13 years old, who is completely drooling over the fact that she can do something and will get paid for it, so that's not a problem. She already said she could do the Fridays(H)

I suppose I'm going to have quite a busy life now. School, lots of homework, paperround, work, friends..

I just hope being in love will keep on getting me the energy I need for all those activities as it does now(A) He's quite busy too, I guess. Heck, if I could, I would run to his house right now to hug him(A) But I'll stop drooling, sorry xD

And of course, my always present friend, coffee. Just not cool that it costs 30 cent at school. It's not really much, but well, you always need cash money to get coffee. Bummer.

Dum.. Quite a long entry, have you noticed? I said things were weird! Maybe everything's changing because it's meant to change. Maybe some next phase of my life or something.

Well I'll just see how things will turn out^^

Ciao! Huggles^^

~Angel

Argh, today was my first schoolday. My main class sucks, but well. My class for French is cool!^^ And the teachers are quite cool. Well, the ones I've had so far, of course. After one day. Blegh, school.

But hey, Friday Lost is being broadcasted over here again! I wonder how many weeks it'll be broadcasted before it stops again. Blegh. Bummer.

I wish school was Lost. Heh xD

I'm glad there are still nice things in life.

...dumdumdum...

*hugs*

Yay!^^

~Angel

Yay for Anette Olzon! <3

Well, something new: Smecky video's on my LJ! This is my 'Favorites-list' on YouTube. Well, actually, these are 12 of the 25 'Favorites'-video's. He can't play them all, apparently. Bummer. Username = angeldass. Oh, there are two AMV's on that account that I made. Watch them if you know the anime!^^ I'll upload more AMV's soon, I guess, yayness^^ I like making video's, I just don't really get the chance to do so with a program that actually works. I have a very old version of WMM on my computer, which sucks. So I'll steal my bro's computer for now, he's in France anyway *evil grin*.

Yellow!

There are so much cool tv-series in this wonderful and yet awful century of electronic improvement. (Wow, I'm rambling crap o.O) Anyway, I just wanted to tell y'all that you really MUST check out the following series:

* Charmed (But of course everyone must've heard of that one, after 10 years^^) [http://tv-links.co.uk/listings/1/1412]
* Heroes (YAY! Quite new here in the Netherlands.) [http://tv-links.co.uk/listings/1/41]
* Dead Like Me (Thanks for mentioning again, Yannick^^) [http://tv-links.co.uk/listings/1/272]
* Supernatural (Thanks for the DVDs of season 1, Tessa! <3) [http://tv-links.co.uk/listings/1/260]

And, as you can see, some advertisement for tv-links.co.uk. But then again, it's such a useful site! Yay^^

There are, of course, more hip series^^ But they are not as cool as the 4 I mentioned above. Yet, I want to mention those as well:

* Judging Amy
* Will & Grace
* Lost (This one is actually as cool as the 4 mentioned above, but they're only broadcasting a limited number of episodes every year over here -_- I've read something about 16 episodes a year, for the coming 3 years. Bummer.)

So, well. If you're bored and all, you can go and watch pilots to see if you like the series. They are all about supernatural and/or spiritual things, by the way. Well, except for Judging Amy and Will & Grace.

So... *dumdumdum* hehe^^
14t0oO0rzZz.
(Hehe. Funny^^)

~Angel.

Argh argh argh argh argh. That's really all I can say at the moment. What the fuck is happening to me? I think I'm going mad at last. Well, who cares. I'll be off to finally read Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows. Ciao!

~Angel

And hello again^^ I just love to stay up late. I can't help it, I just keep on doing it, even though I'm fucking tired and all. Pity today's not a very bright night sky. I can't see any star and the moon is nowhere to be found. I have to go to church tomorrow. Why don't my parents just understand that I am no Christian, whatever they do. Argh. Frustrating. And then there are all those feelings. I wish there was someone who could explain it all, or at least make it a bit easier or something.

Argh.

And that's my final word. Wait.. In fact it is not, because now my last word is

hehe. My last word will be Angel.

<3
Angel